been thinking a lot about this thing i heard desiree akhavan say on a podcast. they were asking her about her movie appropriate behavior (how much is autobiographical? how does your family handle you writing so nakedly?) and she was like, i failed every where else. i had all these tutors and they were like, wtf is wrong with you? i was embarrassingly mediocre every where but my art. to say i related would be an understatement. i started getting bad grades in middle school. i wasn’t on the high honor roll, lucky if i got on the honor roll. in my art i fail, obviously, but i fail less and i fail in a way that doesn’t bother me. it’s like writing is the only thing i’ve seen success in.
the reading at pete’s candy store last thursday was awesome. thanks to everyone who came out!! one of the best ambiance/vibes of a reading i’d done in a long time. great stage for readings. i remember seeing some music there with my brother in like 2006.
sunday afternoon in hudson at courville gallery, i read with abigail thomas, author of three memoirs and two novels. it was such an honor to read with her. i’ve owned her book “thinking about memoir” since i was 22 and highly rec it for anyone writing CNF. abigail read one part where a student described her as ‘a nice old lady with a tattoo’. she was shocked because she doesn’t consider herself nice, or old, or a lady. “didn’t he see me smoking and shooting tequila?” she said.
uhhh what else. no more readings going on for a bit. how boring are these photos of me standing with a book? do writers really feel that invisible? i explored this a little bit in my essay Microphones, but i find myself thinking about it A LOT lately. though it wouldn’t feel authentic i guess if i were posting photos of like, animals and landscapes. saw the movie ‘while we’re young’ last night with my mom. funny. this is a little free library in the town i grew up in. i stop at it each time i drive by and yesterday found a copy of ‘on the road’, ‘traveling mercies’, and ‘nine stories’. score, am i right? at penn station the other day, i did this: